Sunday, September 11, 2011

I have been on dialysis almost a year now. The rage, sorrow, and hopelessness lie quietly in the shadows, and come out at unexpected times.
Yesterday I was in the checkout line at Target and the woman next to me said, "oh your arm looks awful - are you on dialysis?".




I said no. And walked away. Crying.
(The paper shredder can wait another week.)

14 comments:

Colleen said...

Oh Kathy,
Hugs - hugs - and more hugs.
I'm so sorry.

Cherise said...

Hugs!!!

Pearlsa said...

(((HUGS))) may the love of God be wrapped around you like a hug.

Araby62 (a.k.a. Kathy) said...

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Kelly Booth said...

I am really sorry also Kathy. Sending some hugs for you.

Molly said...

You are a star. (((((hugs)))))) and a (((((Dixie hug)))))

Zazzy said...

Big Hugs! And more big hugs!

Wendy said...

Oh, my friend. Much love and many hugs.

Kerri. said...

((( hugs ))) to you, my friend.

Reyna said...

Seriously...My heart lept up into my throat when I read and saw the pic. I know what dialysis looks like. I have seen those arms while working as a nurse in the ICU. I have ran continuous dialysis on hemodynamically unstable patients. You are dealing with the TWO MOST HIGH MAINTAINENCE chronic conditions that exist. My heart, my will, my try go out to you Dear One. Love you...chin up.

Scott S said...

Wow ... that's all I'll say on the photo, other than to say hang in there, seriously. You are such a valuable member of the diabetes online community! I don't know if you've considered it, but if you haven't, there is an organization called "Matching Donors" which is a nonprofit organization that aims to pair individuals who have a living donor but are incompatible with others who are in the same boat so both can have a successful living donor. I don't know a lot, but I do know that in the early days, they made news because of the cost (as I understand it, they'll waive the fee for most who ask) to be listed, but that was a number of years ago. Still, you can visit this organization at http://www.matchingdonors.com for more information. Keep us posted. By the way, a big virtual hug from me to you!

The DL said...

You are so strong. You are doing what is most important and that is taking care of you. Huge and warm wishes. Lauren

Scott K. Johnson said...

Lots of strength, courage, determination, and love to you Kathy.

Bernard said...

Oh Kathy, I can't say anything. God bless you, I just can't imagine. I'll pray for you.